It wasn’t me,..it wasn’t me who was about to throw it all away and leave everyone behind.
That wasn’t me. I didn’t have control over my body. All I did was watching and crying,..again.
That scares me so much, I am unbelievably scared of myself. Hate, there is nothing than hate.
It could happen any moment that I fall back and get to be jailed in my own body watching everything and not being able to do something.
I just want it to stop. I hate her. Leave me alone!
I will write it down, I will write all my thoughts and feelings down, every word I’d like to say but can’t speak out because I don’t know what to do anymore